P. 38 (Returning to the Road to Freedom)

Returning to the road to freedom.

Sometimes I want to be completely free from what I feel is the futility of life. It's when too many distractions and pains have torn out my sparkplugs stripping the threads. Well, at least that what it feels like. Like all my drive gets gone. Really though, the wires aren't even disconnected. The battery and alternator are good, too. But I left the lights on. Drained the juice, and now as heaven touches earth, I remember blessed rest. Rest to recharge my batteries, and I think I'll go to church and get a jump in the morning.

If You Want Me

If You Want Me
By Marketa Iglova & Glen Hansard
Taken from the movie ONCE

Are you really here or am I dreaming
I can’t tell dreams from truth
For it’s been so long since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely and the distance causes only silence
I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

Are you really sure that you believe me
When others say I lie
I wonder if you could ever despise me
When you know I really tried
To be a better one to satisfy you for you’re everything to me
And I'll do what you ask me
If you let me be free

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me

If you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me


Reality is Lies
By R. Wilkinson
after If You Want Me

When you’re here, I’m dreaming.
My dreams are the truth,
And my reality is lies.
It’s been so so long since I’ve been awake.
When I get really lonely, and the silence is the alarm clock blaring tick and tock moments. Let me sleep. Don’t shake . . . me.

If you want me satisfy me
Frustrate the time. Curse the miles,

If you want me satisfy me
Frustrate the clock. Cuss the drive.

Are you really sure that I believe you
When you say you try
I wonder if you know sometimes I despise you
If you want me satisfy me
You begged for my fortressed heart now you’re everything to me,
And I'll do what you ask me.
You here is when I’m free.

If you want me satisfy me
Foil time; vex the hours.

If you want me satisfy me
Defeat the miles and their markers.