Re-finding Myself -Part 3 "Image" section B

So I was considering wearing earrings again. Sometime in the past I rationalized that either it was pointless, costly, or not how I wanted to look. but recently, I wanted something to . . . I don't know. Anyhow, Last week during my personal bible study, I came to this passage of scripture that talked of putting away idols and earrings. In linking them together, it struck me how I was seeking an image that wasn't Godly but self-seeking.

Re-finding Myself -Part 3 "Image"

It used to be that when I looked i the mirror, what I saw reaffirmed who I believed myself to be. Having somewhat lost my way, how important is my look to who I am? Support for my aspiration comes in form like many people, I try to involve myself in communities or synthesize various forms of media from magazines to movies that reinforce my beliefs. Oddly enough I don't fit nicely into any one community, so I can't necessarily assimilate a look known to "those people." Maybe once I find myself, the inside will proflect (new term meaning reflect and project. just made it up)on the outside.

Re-finding Myself -Part 2 "The Prequel"

Seems like over the past couple years I've lost myself. I don't do the things I used to do-things I love like write. I guess that is somewhat reflected in my blog posts or lack thereof. Poetry should flow not drip out choked by a faucets beyond my control. I don't eat, run, or read like I used to. It is almost as if living hasn't been living for me. All I've been doing is reluctantly existing. Reasoning against my feelings and breathing a stale passionless air into half black lungs fueling blue blood. I once wrote a poem about how I want to die like a star changing everything in my sphere of influence. I just want to be me again.

Re-finding Myself -Part 1

I used to find it fascinating how certain performers and artists can seem so shy in interviews. Michael Jackson, Prince, and even Eddie Murphy aren't as out-going as we would expect them to be given they have entertained thousands on stage. But I think I get it now. . . because everyday at work I go on stage. I go into character, so I can engage students and befriend colleagues. Guess I'm not so different.